vacation forever

2012-02-11T11:02:00.001-08:00

Nu ska jag gå o sova och övervinna mitt kaffeabstinensbesvär och lyssna på Boat Club och tänka på vårminnen och tänka på Göteborg.

2012-02-10T03:42:00.001-08:00

my hood.

2012-02-07T18:01:00.000-08:00

where i am - at 18:01 - in bed listening to radio dept

2012-02-07T10:12:00.000-08:00

i'm not kidding myself that anyone reads this shit. i just miss being someone who has this come naturally. being open-hearted is hard. now in order to express any sort of feeling, i need to be high and drunk. 'the truest faith'.

the days between

2012-02-04T10:12:00.000-08:00

I might review this sometime, but i've just finished it, and i'm in disbelief at the ending. how could something so sweet, be horrible and awful and terrible, and alien all at the same time.

well that's what death is like isn't it. death of a beloved friend ...lover. it's understood, but it's not right. i would want to say that i didn't like the ending, but i did, it explains her life more than anything before it.

2012-02-02T03:28:00.000-08:00

I wish we could just meet all over again

2012-01-29T15:24:00.000-08:00

i'm feeling down. i'm always down. when im around people i don't know, i'm someone else. talkative and outgoing, but when im with people i know, and my family, i'm quiet...not myself. it shouldn't be like that.

and i think about bullshit i shouldn't think about. all the time. like life-expectancies and illnesses. people always say i look like my mom. which is ok, cuz when she was young, she was blonde, tall and beautiful. but i think i'm like her in ways no-one knows about. her maudlin moods, the way she trusts no-one, how she cries when she's sad, and her black sense of humor. and i know no matter how good life gets, and how many people i surround myself with, i'll still feel like i'm not there.

2012-01-26T12:46:00.000-08:00

2012-01-23T11:58:00.001-08:00

it's too late baby now it's too late

2012-01-22T10:02:00.000-08:00

COULDN'T CARE LESS WHAT PRICE I GOTTA PAY
EVERYDAY WITH YOU IS LIKE A HOLIDAY

going on holiday with my favourite person. r u getting sick of me TTA'ing all the time? i cant help it, that song is always on my mind.

No one's gonna turn up and make things right.

2012-01-20T13:55:00.001-08:00

beep
boop
beep

2012-01-10T11:57:00.000-08:00

spend 40 minutes walking through sainsbury's
feel like crying every time you think about a certain thing you're not supposed to think about
crush your fingers in your palm
talk loudly on the phone
stare at girls who wear high heels
ignore the stare of cute boys.

i would say see you later, but i don't hang out in gutters

2012-01-09T15:05:00.000-08:00

i'm trouble. and trouble is my best friend. mother fucker.

,

2012-01-08T14:03:00.001-08:00

so warm

2012-01-08T13:06:00.000-08:00

i feel ...lonely
sick,terrified,tired,bored

i think i want to go to korea

indonesia?

somewhere i don't have to wear a thermal jacket.

2011-10-23T11:40:00.000-07:00

you make me feel sick always and happy sometimes